Yes, I’m still here. I’ve gone back and forth on whether to keep this blog running and, if I do, where to focus my efforts. In other words, what is my niche? I’m not going to answer that loaded question today, because honestly, it overwhelms me. I want to focus on ALL. THE. THINGS.
Instead, I’d like to discuss why I’ve been away. At one point, I hoped to brand my blog as being for the working moms out there. You know, the ones who have jobs outside the home, who get to go to an office every day (or at least most days), dressed in something other than yoga pants and stained tees. But then I kept drifting further and further from being that person – or so I thought. I transitioned to a part-time, teleworking job, where I only did that office thing a few times a month. And then my hours kept being less and less. Before I knew it, I was all but unemployed. My family was lucky enough to be able to manage on what little I was bringing in, in addition to my husband’s income. But I felt like a big faker. I felt like I could no longer speak to the woes of the career-minded ’working mom,’ despite having spent over three years in the trenches of commuter hell and cubicle niceties while also being a parent. Suddenly, I had time on my hands. I was the mom picking her kids up at daycare in leisurewear, and I couldn’t accept that this was me.
Now, I’m not going to lie. Having extra time in my days became the norm, and one which I mostly enjoyed. Yet, I couldn’t shake the thought that somehow I wasn’t enough, being in this hybrid SAHM role. And so one way in which I coped was to go all radio-silent on my blog. Thankfully, I have been able to do the absolute minimum to keep my blog active, although I seriously considered pulling the plug a few times. And now my hope is that I can regroup and be able to share with you all what I have learned during this quasi-sabbatical I have been on. So, here’s to fresh starts and trying to just put something out there, even if it isn’t focused on a particular ‘niche’ or demographic, at least not in the traditional sense.